I love this kid

One day Jordan said "hey mom get your camera out and look what I can do." So I did and this is what he did. He is said he could use this skill later in life when he is a pirate:)

Life.....

I find that now that I am 28 (soon to be 29) and have 3 kids (in a few weeks 4) I don't have as much time for the things I once did. I remember when I was 1st married I would call my Sister in law and talk for hours a day with her. I miss that. I haven't spoken to her for hours in years. When I call it is for a few short minutes and then it's back to our daily lives. She has 5 kids so I know she doesn't have the time any more. But I miss it. I think we should have a girls weekend just to chat and laugh!


I also don't have the time I would like for friends either. I mean they don't have time as well so it's not so bad but I would like to see my best friend more then once every three months. One day when she has a baby and I am the their Nanny I will see her daily but for now I miss her when I don't talk to her for month on end but she is busy and I am busy and that is the way it is now.


Crafts... I wish I could use nap time to do them but being 31 weeks pregnant I too need a nap so they have to wait.


I have a few people in my life that just don't seem to understand that I do not have any extra time in my day to make time for myself let alone them. And it's hard because I don't like to hurt others but my time is spent taking care of my kids, husband, house and sometimes myself. I am just not sure how to let them know that maybe we have grown apart and need to move on. Because what they expect from me is not when I can give. And it makes me sad but it's the truth. I can even pee by myself there is always a little one watching or a little hand at reaching under the door or two kids yelling at the door.


At this point in my life the people I consider my friends are the ones I don't need to call everyday or see every week. They are the ones that I can call last minute if I need something and they will be there. The ones that for no reason other than I am having a bad day will bring me and Eegee and a cookie:) That like me need a break from mommy hood and will call to see a movie or get ice cream.



I read an article that said Women with kids don't have time. (I have been working on this darn blog for a week cause I DON'T HAVE TIME) And it is totally true. I wish I had time to talk on the phone but when I do I have three little ones running around me needing my time. And I must give it to them because soon enough they won't need me any more and I will miss this!

I am thankful for the friends in my life who understand that even if I take a week to call you back or can't chat for long or hang out often that I still love ya! That I think of you often and wish we could hang out more but we have little ones that need us right now and when they are all grown up we will have each other to hang out with again:)

kids

We went to Goodyear for the weekend to help Will's buddy move and while we were there we stayed at the Wigwam Resort and Swam A LOT! I also took pictures of the kids (since it had been over a year) He didn't want his taken and had just gotten hit in the eye with a pillow so this was as good as it got.
My sassy girl had a ton of cute ones but I think this one is totally her! I LOVE IT!!

Right when he saw the camera he said "Mommee" and gave me this cute smile. And this would also be the last time we saw this piggy:( we got lock out of the room and while I was busy taking pictures with the other kids Will was busy trying to get back in. And he totally forgot about the toy. We realized it when on the way home he started making piggy noises and saying "where it go" It was so sad. We are going to have to get another.

I love him!

For Father's day this year I deiced to get crafty and make this for Will. It took a lot longer than I thought it would but he loved it and said it was once of the best gifts.(cheapest too) Jordan said when he is a daddy he wants me to make him one. My favorite has to be the bottle filled with 100+ pieces of gum or the Boston baked beans that I got to keep:)

As we were walking out the door I told them I needed a picture and sweet little Bob smiled with out me saying anything. I love this picture!!! I am going to have it framed for Will's office.

I am so thankful for a loving husband who works super hard (and long hours) for us. Who loves our babies and even on Father's day changed every single diaper (including two poops). He even cleaned the whole house for me too! I am one Lucky girl! I love this man.

super girl

We were going to a super hero party and I couldn't think of what to have Kenzie wear. So on the day of the party (an hour before) I came up with this: And she LOVED it! I love her sweet face!
She is super Kenzie. The "K" is super sparkly (just how we like it) and there are flowers on the bottom with sparkle centers of course. It was perfect for my girly girl!

Just one more time

Are you sick of hearing about our Disneyland trip yet? Good cause I'm NOT:) In fact I wish I was there (only not pregnant and holding a sweet baby in my arms) So here is the last bit of pictures (mostly of grandparents to see) We had to wait behind a rope for 10 minutes and Bob was getting silly cause he woke us all up at 6am. The park opened at 10am. The next day when we wanted to go to the park at 7am all the kids work up at 9am (mom was up at 5:45am but I did go back to sleep after a shower)
My boys!!

Me:"Bob show me your smile"

I love how silly Kenzie gets sometimes, how sweet Bob's face is and Jordan looks to grown up for me. Also my belly is HUGE.

Love love love his sweet face

She wanted a picture by Bruce. She is a super model

I think Will like Pirates the most:) Actually Jordan could have ridden it all day. We rode it 4 times and would have rode it more if it didn't break for a long time one day.

I love this! I forget what ride this is....

Bob loved the Balloons in Mickey's house. In fact he loves Mickey.

You have to take one here

and here

OH and here. I like how Jordan's shoe is coming off. He really thought it would come out and was REAL mad when it didn't.

Love these kids

All my loves!

Jordan wanted me to take this of him

My kids!

On the car ride that I almost DIED on! Jordan would turn before the turn because he saw it up ahead. I tried to tell him you turned when you got to the turn but he didn't get it. We went on this twice. I almost died twice. NEVER AGAIN....

Watching the parade. He loved it! There was tons of dancing which he loves

And you see that cute girl in the pink jacket that is my girl dancing in the parade! Too bad my camera died right after this picture (I should had charged the batteries oh well)

*Kenzie went on splash mountain and LOVED it. After the drop she turned to Will and said "Daddy when is the BIG drop?"

*Jordan HATED tower of terror

*Bob rode almost everything unless he was too small for it

*We ran into our friends Bill and Nora Morgan

*Next time I go I will NOT be pregnant. It wasn't so bad but I would rather not be

We had a GREAT time and can't wait to go back! The plan is to go back in about 2 years or so. Will said he could go every year. Which is funny because a few years ago he said he HATED Disneyland....

NOT ready...but ready?

I have 90 days (or less because I have never made it to my due date) till my family no longer looks like this:

and we add one more little man. I am ready to NOT be pregnant but I am not sure if my heart is ready for another one to love. I still think of Bob as a baby and just can't see him as a big brother yet, it fact it hurts to think about it and makes me cry. (could be cause everything makes me cry right now) But really how am I going to do this? Jordan and Kenzie are 19 months apart but Jordan didn't NEED me like Bob needs me. Bob wants me to hold and cuddle him all day. He NEED me! He's my sweet baby guy still. Can I have two babies? Even if they are almost 24 months apart? Is this what it is like with twins?

And 4 kids!! How in the world am I going to be a mom to 4 kids!! I mean I want 6 (I think) but I want some in school. Jordan will be starting school a few weeks before so I will still have 3 at home and have to worry about my oldest baby at school. I am not even ready to give him to school yet... I just can't think of that hurdle even if it does come before the baby.

Maybe I am stressing way too much and should be relaying on the Lord more. He does know me more than I know me. He knew I could do this and this baby wanted to come to our family NOW! There must be a reason why. I am excited to have 3 missionary sons. Even if two will be gone at the same time (Bob and this baby over lap by two weeks) NOW that will be hard on my heart in 19 years. But exciting. Just think of all the families that will be blessed.

I never would have guess when I joined the church that almost 11 years later I would have so many blessings. It was a HARD choice and I did it cause I KNEW it was right. And now I am getting to see all the wonderful things that come from my choice. I LOVE IT!!

Anyways if you have ideas on how to make this easier on my heart then let me know...