A mixture of feelings

I am not sure how to feel or how to start this little post but I guess the facts is a good place.



Sat morning Will was going to go Paint balling with some friends and take my brother with him. My brother called around 6:30am and woke Will up (Will had set his alarm wrong) So Will said he would get up and get out the door. I woke up and looked at the clock at 7am and rolled over to tell Will to get up. Next thing I know I am stilling in a chair in my front room with firemen, my parents, and Will's parents in front of me. They were asking me all kinds of questions that I could not answer.

I had had a seizure sometime between 7am and 7:06am when Will look at the clock then found me in the middle of it. Jordan too saw me and called 911. He wasn't sure what was happening so he rubbed my head. (I had one before about 3 years ago in the middle of RS with Kenzie on my lap but he was not around and she was too little to remember)
I sent the whole day in the ER for testing and I feel like I have been hit by a Mack truck. I called my Dr and we both are thinking it is from my Bronchitis but we will have to do some testing.
And this point I am upset and still a little dazed. For now to be safe I can't drive so that stinks. And Jordan is very worried.

I am mad that I had one but thankful that Will was home I am not sure how everything would have played out if he would have been gone like he was suppose to be. I am trying to find the good in this but it may take some time.

I have the BEST family and friends and for that I am glad. I know it could be worse but right now I am upset to have to take meds every day but hope to find ones with the least side effects. It will take time to get over being upset and time for me to know this is my life. It may not be what I planned but it is what I have. At least this time I know I can have more children.

If you would like to know what you could do to help come over and visit us or call and I'll let you know. I will be okay but for today I upset and I think I am okay with that.

Too late?

Is it too late to move back in time and make it Aug? I mean I am NOT ready for Christmas at all and I am too sick to worry about it. I sent Will out Christmas shopping...Not sure if it was a good idea but really don't care at this point. I am wainting for Nextcare to call and tell me they are ready for me... I hope I can get some Meds and be good.
I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. I am going to have goals for 2010 that WILL get done! This year I got hardly anything done but a new year and a fresh start *might* help.
What are some of the things you want to get done in 2010?

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I have one baby who is teething and the oldest is about to loose teeth. I am sick (fever and all that comes with it) and the princess thinks it's a good idea to pour a whole bottle of baby powder on the table. Really? When do I get my sick day.......

Santa baby...

I've been an angel all year! So please please fill my stocking with these:
1. Kiwi Measowseet by Sandi Henderson

2.Blush Fat Quarter BundleBasic Grey for Moda Fabrics

3.Venice Beach California Dreamin' Fat Quarter BundleJenean Morrison for Free Spirit Fabrics

4.Calm Dolce Fat Quarter BundleTanya Whelan for Free Spirit Fabrics or maybe this or even this

5. How about the store:) I love this place fatquartershop!!!!

(Sorry but the pictures wouldn't load) I made it easy for you just go HERE and you can find it all! Or click on the name and it takes you right to you. I promise to make super cute stuff out of them:) I also promise to share with my friends too. So by giving to me you are giving to many as I will make super cute these for all the new babies coming. Santa cutie hurry down the chimney tonight ;)

*have you been a good girl if so go HERE and let Santa know*

Running circles around me

The reason I am not blogging much these days is because life is very busy with three little ones running around ALL day. Plus who really reads this anyways. So to my few readers I am going to blog at least once a week and look for my new blog that is all about me and a discovering something within........

5 for Friday

Lessons learned this week

1. Some times words aren't needed. A friend of mine had to say goodbye to her sweet baby girl this week. Ella Rose is now with Heavenly Father and I am sure that doesn't make loosing her any easier for her mommy who never really got to be her mommy in this life. So I really didn't know what to say so instead I gave her a hug along with a scrapbook. I know that Lynn with see her sweet baby again and get to raise her and love her and for that I am thankful

2.When buying ice cream make sure that baby is a sleep or buy him an empty cone cause he can yell REALLY LOUD. But Vol 37 of the radio does make the yelling a little less loud.

3. When someone hurts the kids feelings I can not fix them. This was hard for me because I am suppose to fix all the hurts but by letting them try and work it our themselves I am helping them to grow.

4. I HATE the heat!! I already knew this but is should not be this hot in Nov. I need a break from it!!

5. It is hard to find a good movie. Every time we go to rent one we find that the ones that sound good are rated R so we leave with nothing. And watch the office instead.

Wordless Wednesday

I think he wants out