Saturday, June 26, 2010
Thursday, June 24, 2010
She is super Kenzie. The "K" is super sparkly (just how we like it) and there are flowers on the bottom with sparkle centers of course. It was perfect for my girly girl!
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
On the car ride that I almost DIED on! Jordan would turn before the turn because he saw it up ahead. I tried to tell him you turned when you got to the turn but he didn't get it. We went on this twice. I almost died twice. NEVER AGAIN....
And you see that cute girl in the pink jacket that is my girl dancing in the parade! Too bad my camera died right after this picture (I should had charged the batteries oh well)
Monday, June 14, 2010
and we add one more little man. I am ready to NOT be pregnant but I am not sure if my heart is ready for another one to love. I still think of Bob as a baby and just can't see him as a big brother yet, it fact it hurts to think about it and makes me cry. (could be cause everything makes me cry right now) But really how am I going to do this? Jordan and Kenzie are 19 months apart but Jordan didn't NEED me like Bob needs me. Bob wants me to hold and cuddle him all day. He NEED me! He's my sweet baby guy still. Can I have two babies? Even if they are almost 24 months apart? Is this what it is like with twins?
And 4 kids!! How in the world am I going to be a mom to 4 kids!! I mean I want 6 (I think) but I want some in school. Jordan will be starting school a few weeks before so I will still have 3 at home and have to worry about my oldest baby at school. I am not even ready to give him to school yet... I just can't think of that hurdle even if it does come before the baby.
Maybe I am stressing way too much and should be relaying on the Lord more. He does know me more than I know me. He knew I could do this and this baby wanted to come to our family NOW! There must be a reason why. I am excited to have 3 missionary sons. Even if two will be gone at the same time (Bob and this baby over lap by two weeks) NOW that will be hard on my heart in 19 years. But exciting. Just think of all the families that will be blessed.
I never would have guess when I joined the church that almost 11 years later I would have so many blessings. It was a HARD choice and I did it cause I KNEW it was right. And now I am getting to see all the wonderful things that come from my choice. I LOVE IT!!
Anyways if you have ideas on how to make this easier on my heart then let me know...
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Mad Hatter (Jordan's favorite)
Bob wanted to get inside:)
Wednesday, June 9, 2010
Running from the waves