Tuesday, April 5, 2011
I often want others to forgive me right away but I am not so quick to forgive others. I sit and think about what upset me over and over again and get hurt over and over again. And therefore it is hard to forgive. Why is it that I want someone to forgive me but yet I don't do the same? I really don't know. I need to work on that. I have had a few people that have hurt my feeling really bad these past few months and I am finding it really hard to forgive. I feel that if I forgive I will just get hurt again because that is what has happened to me and I really don't want to be hurt again. But caring the hurt feelings is also not something I want to have either. So here I sit with an internal struggle with myself. I know I must forgive but I don't want it. So when Sat afternoon conference came on and President Boyd K. Packer gave this talk. I knew what I had to do. I have to leave it alone. I have to forgive and repent. I have watched this talk 5 times now and every time I feel peace in my heart and I know I can do it. It will be hard to forgive but I know that with the help of Heavenly Father I can do it. I must pray for the help to forgive and just "leave it alone." Now I am not saying I have done it yet but I am working on it and I hope to have this heavy burden of hurt feeling gone. And I know they will happen again (I hope not too soon) but I know now to just "leave it alone." I am thankful for a Heavenly Father who loves me enough to know just what I need to hear and to give me the tools to change and to became more Christlike. I know that with the help of him I will be able to do what I find so hard to do and next time it maybe a little easier to forgive and maybe "leave it alone" from the start. If you are feeling the same way as I am about forgiving please listen to the talk it is only about 16 minutes and it will change your life. Let me know how it goes for you and I will update you on me. I must know get on my knees I have some serious praying to do!!!!