A mixture of feelings

I am not sure how to feel or how to start this little post but I guess the facts is a good place.



Sat morning Will was going to go Paint balling with some friends and take my brother with him. My brother called around 6:30am and woke Will up (Will had set his alarm wrong) So Will said he would get up and get out the door. I woke up and looked at the clock at 7am and rolled over to tell Will to get up. Next thing I know I am stilling in a chair in my front room with firemen, my parents, and Will's parents in front of me. They were asking me all kinds of questions that I could not answer.

I had had a seizure sometime between 7am and 7:06am when Will look at the clock then found me in the middle of it. Jordan too saw me and called 911. He wasn't sure what was happening so he rubbed my head. (I had one before about 3 years ago in the middle of RS with Kenzie on my lap but he was not around and she was too little to remember)
I sent the whole day in the ER for testing and I feel like I have been hit by a Mack truck. I called my Dr and we both are thinking it is from my Bronchitis but we will have to do some testing.
And this point I am upset and still a little dazed. For now to be safe I can't drive so that stinks. And Jordan is very worried.

I am mad that I had one but thankful that Will was home I am not sure how everything would have played out if he would have been gone like he was suppose to be. I am trying to find the good in this but it may take some time.

I have the BEST family and friends and for that I am glad. I know it could be worse but right now I am upset to have to take meds every day but hope to find ones with the least side effects. It will take time to get over being upset and time for me to know this is my life. It may not be what I planned but it is what I have. At least this time I know I can have more children.

If you would like to know what you could do to help come over and visit us or call and I'll let you know. I will be okay but for today I upset and I think I am okay with that.

Too late?

Is it too late to move back in time and make it Aug? I mean I am NOT ready for Christmas at all and I am too sick to worry about it. I sent Will out Christmas shopping...Not sure if it was a good idea but really don't care at this point. I am wainting for Nextcare to call and tell me they are ready for me... I hope I can get some Meds and be good.
I can't believe how fast this year has gone by. I am going to have goals for 2010 that WILL get done! This year I got hardly anything done but a new year and a fresh start *might* help.
What are some of the things you want to get done in 2010?

?????

I have one baby who is teething and the oldest is about to loose teeth. I am sick (fever and all that comes with it) and the princess thinks it's a good idea to pour a whole bottle of baby powder on the table. Really? When do I get my sick day.......

Santa baby...

I've been an angel all year! So please please fill my stocking with these:
1. Kiwi Measowseet by Sandi Henderson

2.Blush Fat Quarter BundleBasic Grey for Moda Fabrics

3.Venice Beach California Dreamin' Fat Quarter BundleJenean Morrison for Free Spirit Fabrics

4.Calm Dolce Fat Quarter BundleTanya Whelan for Free Spirit Fabrics or maybe this or even this

5. How about the store:) I love this place fatquartershop!!!!

(Sorry but the pictures wouldn't load) I made it easy for you just go HERE and you can find it all! Or click on the name and it takes you right to you. I promise to make super cute stuff out of them:) I also promise to share with my friends too. So by giving to me you are giving to many as I will make super cute these for all the new babies coming. Santa cutie hurry down the chimney tonight ;)

*have you been a good girl if so go HERE and let Santa know*

Running circles around me

The reason I am not blogging much these days is because life is very busy with three little ones running around ALL day. Plus who really reads this anyways. So to my few readers I am going to blog at least once a week and look for my new blog that is all about me and a discovering something within........

5 for Friday

Lessons learned this week

1. Some times words aren't needed. A friend of mine had to say goodbye to her sweet baby girl this week. Ella Rose is now with Heavenly Father and I am sure that doesn't make loosing her any easier for her mommy who never really got to be her mommy in this life. So I really didn't know what to say so instead I gave her a hug along with a scrapbook. I know that Lynn with see her sweet baby again and get to raise her and love her and for that I am thankful

2.When buying ice cream make sure that baby is a sleep or buy him an empty cone cause he can yell REALLY LOUD. But Vol 37 of the radio does make the yelling a little less loud.

3. When someone hurts the kids feelings I can not fix them. This was hard for me because I am suppose to fix all the hurts but by letting them try and work it our themselves I am helping them to grow.

4. I HATE the heat!! I already knew this but is should not be this hot in Nov. I need a break from it!!

5. It is hard to find a good movie. Every time we go to rent one we find that the ones that sound good are rated R so we leave with nothing. And watch the office instead.

Wordless Wednesday

I think he wants out

5 for Friday

1. At 13 months the baby (he is still a baby right? I thought so too) got his 1st hair cut. I cried but I love it. I now call him new hairs:) Like when he wakes up I say Hi new hairs and he laughs. And I kiss him This is the after
A lollipop to help

This is my crazy hair boy before.

2. I am so excited for Saturday I am going to go to the temple with one of my YW Tia! I am even her escort. For once I felt like I get to see the fruits of my labor by being able to not only see her grown in the gospel but to see her in the temple and in a week be sealed. My 1st calling was CTR 5 teacher and now those kids are 12 Young Men and Woman! Crazy to think that

3. I am extremely grateful for my Children that they are healthy and make me crazy. A friend of mine lost her sweet baby girl this week and it makes me happy to know that Families are Forever. That if we loose our babies in this life we will get to raise them in the next.

4.I love the show Fast Forward! I am glad I have something to watch once Lost is over (not happy about that but maybe all will be answered!)

5. I love my husband! I am so glad I get him forever! He is wonderful and makes me laugh all the time sometimes I have to make him stop or I will pee my pants. He is so funny and can make any day a GREAT one. And he now has Saturdays off!!! Can't wait till we have a free one to just hang out.

Wordless Wednesday

Rob-"One is never enough"

Halloween 2009

A picutre preview of our Halloween this year Rob was a froggie. And he loved his he laughed at his hands most of the night.
Jordan was a pirate, Kenzie a witch only she hated the hat, the froggie and Ali was a princess

Will and I at a party. (and our princess)

This is the kids the night of our party. Two pirates and a princess

5 for Friday

Thing you need to know this week.1. Spiderman has been found!! He is at the Zoo. Not sure why he is there but he is and we were so excited to see him.
2. Having a fireplace will make your winter seem more wintery and Christmas more Christmasy:)


3. Painting pumpkins it the thing to do! Really was less of a mess.

4. When you see your best friend there is no crying. It is just sad all around. (This is Will's best friend Jared's little guy he is 6 days older than Rob and he was not happy at the Zoo. But the boys will get to spend 4 whole days together in 3 weeks and we are hoping for some fun time!)

5. Read your scriptures everyday! It makes it more fun if you read together. (We found the kids like this one night and it made our hearts melt.)



and last don't forget

She is 4

Here are a few pictures of the party. I will post more later. I can't believe how fast 4 years goes by. I wish there was some way to stop time for just a little bit. I miss having to hold her all day and her needed just me. Now she wants Daddy just as much. I do get sweet hugs and kisses randomly so I hope that last a LONG while longer! She is just so fun. I love having a little princess who also seems to like to roll in the dirt. All the girls! Kenzie smile is too cute. She had a fun party.

Happy birthday Princess!!


My sassy girl and I. I loved this shirt for her party but it make her look so big. I miss my sweet baby girl. She doesn't like to be told what to do (who does) and she lets us know by saying."I can do whatever I can do"

5 for Friday

1. Can't wait for our pinkalicious day on Sat. Can't believe my girl is turning 4!

2. Started reading One Last song. Nicholas Sparks new book and I love it! No surpise there I love all his books

3.Still need to find something for the baby to wear on Halloween. I can't find teal tights so I think we need a new plan

4.I need a good sugar cookie recipe one where the cookies don't spread so much and actually look like the cutter. So if you have one send it my way

5.Need to start new rules in our house. Don't raise a hand to hit, a foot to kick or a voice to yell.

When does it end....

It's so HOT outside still. What is going on why is the summer still here. I HATE the heat! I need it to be fall and nice outside. We went to the mountain on Monday and it was BEAUTIFUL! I want the weather to feel how this picture makes me feel.

5 things Friday

Going to start this today. 5 random things for Friday

1. My stomach hurts just thinking about what today brings. Daddy/ Daughter camp out plus J is going to a friends house. So I am all alone tonight (well with my cuddle bug baby) I am not sure what to do. Baby goes to bed between 7-8 so I am just I don't even know. anyways....

2. I need to start making the kids quilts I have all the fabric I just need motivation.

3. Monday is the day. I am getting this whole family on an eat right plan and working out. (Yes the kids love to workout so I am hoping to love it too)

4. Since Will has a hard time taking time off of work I am thinking about going out of town for Thanksgiving weekend. (He is not working then so why not? really what are your thoughts on that)

5. I need some creative (and cheap) Christmas ideas for our family. I really don't want to spend a lot of money and we all know how I feel about Christmas being about Christ not gifts anyways...

Okay there you have it 5 of the million and one things on my mind this Friday.

Change is good right?

We went to our new ward on Sunday and I cried the whole 3 hours. To start off we told Jordan that we were going to a new church and he got really sad. So we explained that it was the same church just different people he then cried and said "Church is not church without Grandma and Grandpa" Well I guess going to their ward for the past 3 years really he doesn't know anything else so I just hugged him and kind of felt the same but didn't say it.
The 1st hour the baby was crazy I really missed Grandma then because she would take him and he would sit nice for her. Then the 2nd hour came and he ran around like a mad man. The other two had no problem going to their new class (they are in the same class) I cried because they didn't need me...
Our Gospel teacher is my Bishop from when I 1st joined the church. I cried remembering how sweet he was and cried because it help me to know the church is true you go from one calling to the next with no problem nothing is too small.
RS was really hard I totally missed my YW! I cried because I miss seeing their testimonies grow.
But I am excited for new things and to start this new chapter in our lives. We have a bigger house for less money still have the same friends and will make new ones.

CAKE

These are not really in order but who care he is cute! He loved loved loved the cake and couldn't get enough of it. I knew he would get messy but he makes messy look cute. Enjoy the cute pictures and his cute little baby face:) Who wants more cake? ME ME ME
The cake

He wanted it and didn't want to wait for a silly song

He was so excited he clapped a lot!

YUMMY

He is one!

One year ago I was meeting my little man for the 1st time. He was so perfect and little (7 pounds 4 ounces, my other babies were 8 pounds) He had the cutest little face and was so sweet. He had little hands that I loved to kiss and hold. He was so wonderful! I couldn't believe how lucky I was to have this perfect little baby in my arms and two more perfect babies at home. I was a mommy of THREE! I had three kids and I loved them all so much. It is had to imagine having so much love to go around but I think with each baby my heart must grow a little to fit each one inside.
It happened so fast. In fact my mom when to eat and came back (so maybe 2 hours a the most) and I went from 2cm to a baby in my arms. It was fun to see them walk in the room and be surprised that there was a baby in my arms. I think my mom even wandered who's baby it was:)

Now I have a one year old. He walks everywhere and trys to run.

Laughs when ever someone is laughing.

Love food and sweets are his favorite.

Claps all the time.

Has cute old man hair and we LOVE it!

Still has little hands and feet.

Will give you a hug randomly and often. He is a lover.

Yells at our dog the WHOLE time he sees her.

Points and says "what that"

Loves his brother and sister

Falls asleep in the car every time.

Loves to take a bath and will throw a fit when it is time to get out. Even if it has been a LONG while (20min)

Has four teeth.

Pretends his hand is a phone and says "hi dad"

He likes to smash his food before he eats it.

When he is done eating he will start to throw his food.

He likes to wait for Daddy at the front door. He yells and bangs on it.

If the bathroom door is open he will run to try and get in to it before you shut it.

Has the cutest laugh and smile and face and hair and... I just LOVE LOVE LOVE him!

I can't get enough of him I could list a million things about him but really he is so sweet and there is something different about him. Will and I say it all the time. One day we will figure it out but for now he is just our Rob Bob and we are so lucky to have him FOREVER!!!!!

( I will post pictures from the party soon)

kids on the Monkey bars

This is when we went to the park and J tried the Monkey bars for the 1st time. He did a great job.

K tried but couldn't really get it. But she tried and that is all we can ask for:)

Some of my new favorite things

1. Diet Caffeine free coke with crushed ice and two shots of cherry!!!

2. Robbie pointing at everything and saying "that that"

3.My new house. If a kid yells at one end I can't hear them on the other end. SOOOOO nice!

4.Robbie walking. He looks like a monkey only cuter and less hairy

5. This blog it almost makes me want another baby. Almost. Then I remember I am getting rid of some weight, I have three at home, and I don't really want to go crazy yet:)

6. Having my own scrapbook room, well almost as soon as I unpack it and Letysha gets over her to get it done, I mean help me:)

7. Chicken with pesto and cheese on top

8. That my mom lives so close and my brother just stops by to play with the kids and I can actually clean.

9. Having no cable. The kids are reading and playing outside more.

10. LOST okay so I have always liked it but it helps my workout go faster.

My thoughts

Tonight at Stake Conference baby Robbie fell asleep so I got to cuddle him up just like when he was a new baby. I love it! Anyways.... The speaker was telling about giving his daughter's a fathers blessing. There are not many times when I am sad that I didn't grow up in the church but this time I was very sad. I never got a daddy's blessing nor will I ever and I wish so bad that I could have had that experience. But as I held my sweet baby I couldn't help but feel blessed for the Priesthood that Will holds.
He can give our children blessings whenever they need them. He can help guide and direct our family in a way that would lead us back to our Heavenly Father. When our children need comfort he will be there to do that. And I know that a husbands blessing is always waiting for me if I need it.
I am grateful for the church for the love of a Heavenly Father. While my dad (both of them) is not able to give me a fathers blessing I know that I can get on my knees and my Heavenly Father will bless my life and calm my fears. I know he loves me and knows me by name. He knows my wants and fears. He wants nothing but the best for me. He sent Jesus to die for me and all who will live and have lived. I could not imagine the pain Heavenly Father must have felt when Jesus asked him to end it in the garden. He loves us enough to watch as his son died on the cross. I love all my children and couldn't see sending one to suffer so much for another. I would want to do it myself.
I am sure that when I meet Heavenly Father and Jesus I will be in tears because of the love I have for them and hug them tightly and say Thank you. For really there are no other words to express how grateful I am! I am so excited to have an eternal family. Heaven would not be wonderful with out them.
I am glad my babies our mine forever because I don't think we ever have enough time to enjoy them. Robbie is almost 11 months and I just want to hold him and kiss him ALL day. In fact I want to do that with all my kids.
Okay it is late these are a few things I was thinking about and wanted to share.......

This is for you Will.

Now that I know you read this I wanted to let you know and the rest of the world: I LOVE my life!! Really I love my husband and love that he works hard to provide for us. Even if I complain I do love him for being a hard worker. I love that we have the church in our lives to help guide and direct us on how to live. I love that we are a forever family! Kenzie sings to us all the time that "families can be forgether forever." I may at times be totally stressed (and who wouldn't with 3 little kids in a small house) but I love being a mommy and if I couldn't have any more babies my heart would be broken! I want more kids (just want to wait a little) in fact I want a house full of kids and later on grand kids. (if I watch The family stone I really want a bunch of kids) I just wanted Will to know that I love him and thank him for all we have and all his hard work! I know it stinks now but one day it will all pay off. (Just remember to take a day off once in a while because we need you ALL day to our self's)

Apple Annies

About a month ago we went to Apple Annies to pick corn and peaches. It was HOT outside but we had a lot of fun plus Mr. Gibson finally had a day off. (He has had about 3 days off in a year, Well Sundays he doesn't work but that doesn't count)

K loved the yummy peaches
Me and my babies!

J picking corn. We later found out you weren't suppose to pick it your self.

Will showing J how it is done

R showing us his corn. This is one of my favorites

I like this too!!

10 months already...

I can't believe how fast these last 10 months have gone.

Robbie is so fun

He has one tooth and another on the way

Likes to clap

Found his paci again and likes it

Gets scared of Kenzie sometimes

Likes to stay up later than the big kids so he can have loves and Mommy all to himself

Hates baby food.

Weighs 15 pounds

Likes dogs and yells at them

Can climb up all our boxes

Likes to stick his tongue out

Never sits still for long

He gets really excited when he sees his bottle

LOVES to jump

When we go in his room he gets excited and starts jumping in his bed

walks on his knees and jumps too

I can't believe my baby is 10 months already. He is really so fun and gives the BEST kisses. I just love his cute little face and can't wait to one day see him as a big brother (in a few years!) He is just so sweet and I am lucky to be his mommy.

Kenzie....

Mom- Kenzie you are really pushing my buttons today!

Kenzie- (laughing really hard) You don't have any buttons silly.

Mom-okay but you are driving me nuts

Kenzie- (while hugging me) I love you mother

I LOVE IT!

Robbie loves Popsicles. He has one every time we go swimming which is almost everyday. These pictures are of the 1st time he had one. I love this little guy!! Wrong way baby
Still not right:)

YUMMY thanks for the help dad

He loves them!

Wicked!

# 84 on my list was to see a play. So my friend Letysha and I went to see Wicked. I have been wanting to see if for years but Will wouldn't go or I had a baby but I finally went. And it was better than I expected! I can't wait to see it again:) I tried to read the book but couldn't finish it so I may try again. Really you should all go see this is was fantastic!!!!!!

Us. We matched and didn't even play it I packed this shirt and she got this dress while we were there. I was not with her when she got it. Kind of fun how it worked out. We painted our toes green for the play too.

Whale it is.

I always wish I could loose weight and get really sad about no be able to do so. I have deiced to work out 3 days a week more if I want and to not weigh myself or measure until I have done this for a month to a month and a half. Then I will have a lifestyle I like and the rest will just fit. Well that is how I see it anyways.
I came across this and it made me feel even better about my choice in not worrying about the weight and more on my lifestyle and children.


Recently, in large French city, a poster featuring a young, thin and tan woman appeared in the window of a gym.
It said:¨THIS SUMMER DO YOU WANT TO BE A MERMAID OR A WHALE?¨
A middle aged woman, whose physical characteristics did not match those of the woman on the poster, responded publicly to the question posed by the gym.To Whom It May Concern:Whales are always surrounded by friends (dolphins, sea lions, curious humans). They have an active sex life, they get pregnant and have adorable baby whales. They have a wonderful time with dolphins stuffing themselves with shrimp. They play and swim in the seas,seeing wonderful places like Patagonia, the Barren Sea and the coral reefs of Polynesia. Whales are wonderful singers and have even recorded CDs. They are incredible creatures and virtually have no predators other than humans. They are loved, protected and admired by almost everyone in the world.Mermaids don't exist. If they did exist, they would be lining up outside the offices of Argentinean psychoanalysts due to identity crisis. Fish or human? They don't have a sex life because they kill men who get close to them not to mention how could they have sex?Therefore they do not have kids either. Not to mention who wants to get close to a girl who smells like a fish store? The choice is perfectly clear to me; I want to be a whale.P.S. We are in an age when media puts into our heads the idea that only skinny people are beautiful, but I prefer to enjoy an ice cream with my kids, a good dinner with a man who makes me shiver and drink with my friends. With time we gain weight because we accumulate so much information and wisdom in our heads that when there is no more room it distributes out to the rest of our bodies. So we aren't heavy, we are enormously cultured, educated and happy. Beginning today, when I look at my butt in the mirror I will think,"Good gosh, look how smart I am."

4th of July (a little late)

We had a really fun and full day. It started at 8am with breakfast at the park, some horse ridding, and a water fight. Then we went swimming for a long while with some friends then the Hayes kids came over. After we went home for a movie. Then out to dinner. We a thankful to live in this wonderful country and thank all who fight for our freedom! Enjoy some of the pictures:) Danny and Gabe

don't worry this was only for a picture

Rob and Grandma

at dinner

Jordan jumping

Will and his buddy Justin Paul

Kenzie was so EXCITED!!

Kenzie ready for the water fight